TO BE A CLOUD W/ YOU
We move slow over grassy hills
sleep deep in the untethered
weather February Pisces season unhinge
silly brass, together n reckless
tiramisu @ 1pm EST T4T (turtle4turtle)
you play plush rough w/ dreamy eyes
retreat in yr city our home
shaved necks under palms
soft early winter moon rain
tapping windowpane pulse I put
yr hand on my humming while
the finches dance branches
thru logic wind n possibility all
of time wrapped around our perfect
mouths
I’M LEARNING HOW TO ASK YOU TO
all the YouTube tarot readers tell me I’m self sufficient n all the astrology readers tell me I’m independent n my mom doesn’t ask for help all that much actually n my therapist says that even self sufficient ppl need to be cared for n I’m afraid this whole time I’ve performed the sort of independence that makes me unreachable n who am I when you can reach me n is it ok that I’m working this out n wear a hat that says still learning so ppl know that n I need to be different this time if I want to be seen even tho I don’t want everyone to see me n I’m shaving my head again a 3 week molt n I admit I enjoy the blades on my skull on a call during sunset on a Sunday in February after putting a farmer’s market blueberry in my mouth n bringing it up to the phone’s front facing camera for you to eat from my lips from yr front facing camera n this intimacy has me out here like that n each time I communicate my want I feel closer to myself n the blueberry’s center tastes better from yr mouth but I offer mine n ask you to
Alexis Aceves Garcia centers care in their work as a writer, co-curator of already felt: poems in revolt & bounty, and managing editor of Deem Journal. They are currently the steward of a heart-shaped hummingbird feeder in their Abuela’s backyard and an MFA in Writing student at UCSD. You can find their poems in beestung, The Hennepin Review, The Best of the Net Anthology 2022, Apogee Journal, Peach Mag, and The BreakBeat Poets Volume 4: LatiNext, with poems forthcoming in rivulet. Follow them on Instagram and Twitter @loveloaf_.